Its not even been a month and i have leant more in these two-three weeks then i have in what i can remember.

Numerous job interviews, afew rash decisions that thankfully was rationalized by people i value so so much. Emotional turmoil, confusion, overall just having so much on my mind.

But i think its time to slow down and be thankful for all that ive learnt and to pen it down because we all know what horrible memory i have.

Even though i realize that people may often resort to unsulcuptures ways to get what they want from you, i also found the people who were there to point it out to me and to guide me.

Two weeks ago i was wondering if i wanted to go into a career where life was all about climbing the coporate ladder. Where everyone is competiting to get promoted and just rushing about everywhere.

Yes, i wanted to, to "chiong" while i was still young and able. But now, presented with a choice which i might be ( crosses fingers ), i would go for the one with a lower pay, but it being somewhere i enjoy, somewhere that i am motivated to work hard not because of money.

Because life is so much more then just earning money and spending it on luxury items or whatnot, but enjoying life and its process and adding value to others is what makes life worth living aint it?

Above all, i really cant thank my parents enough for going through this quite horrible phase with me, everyday i am just adding to the list of things to worry about. But through it all, the support and love they have shown me is super. Really really thankful for them because i really wouldnt have come to this stage without them <3

And also my dear colleague, for all the advice given, that have proven to be so effective, i have really found a friend in her :) sharing her experiences and helping me not to commit the same mistakes because she's been through them. This friendship is just so so valuable :)

And most of all, God. Even though i have been extremely frustrated with God through this time, i have never doubted his love for me and for him always always being there even though it might have pained him to watch me struggle to make the right decisons as well. Im glad that i can just count on him to comfort me before every interview and be there with me through it all :)

For now, i shall just keep my fingers crossed for good news on tuesday :D