Really, the working life is really not easy.
Studying seems like a luxury after entering the workforce.

Why do all adults wish to become a kid again? Because there are no responsibilities involved. Just eat sleep play, be happy, The occasional quarrels with friends that is forgotten after a day or two.

But as we grow older, and enter the workforce, there are just so many realities to face, things to endure, lessons to learn. Even with good news, a job offer, an opportunity even, that has to be declined because of various reasons. to persevere in a harsh environment, doing things I detest, actions that have now become a chore.

Even when resignation seems so easy, with no commitments, enough money to spare, just one letter and freedom would ensue, yet I can't do so because of the responsibilites I have. Not to make a rash decision for my own comfort for the 'greater good' for my future. Even though I may very well die next year. Who knows. Yet I cannot just tender my resignation because I feel like it. Because there are so many more things to think about.

And it really sucks. But that's life right. Just have to suck it up and live with it.

And through all this time. It has really been so tough not being able to hear from God clearly. What he wants me to do, his plan, his will, all seems so blurry at this point. Even when I ask and seek him, he has been silent. Or maybe because I havnt really been listening.

But no matter what, no matter how miserable I feel now, it will pass. Grow up Eunice, Life waits for no man.