I had a dream last night. And it was a scary dream alright.  I dreamt that I shot myself in the head and that I came to life again. But even thereafter I tried to kill myself again and again. I tried amputation both my legs, I tried to cut off my head and I tried to jump off a building. As amusing as it sounds, it concerns me. I mean who gets such dreams all of a sudden? And most dreams I forget within a few minutes of waking but this dream I remember so vividly.

When I awoke, I went to Google the meaning of my dream.

Dying in a dream and coming back to life means that I have left something of myself behind and that I am going to be victorious in my coming battle. 

Trying to commit suicide shows my desperate desire to escape from my waking life. It may be a self transformation that I am saying goodbye to a part of me and help to a whole new me.

Amputation of legs means that I am being limited. That someone or something is hindering my progress.

I think this entire dream has a lot to do with work. It's tough adjusting to a new workplace. But I have no complains. Either way, it's still much better then the previous workplace (I hope).

Dear God, only you truly know my hardships and worries. Please help me to adjust well to the new environment and teach me the words to say. Help me to realize that I cannot please everybody. That doing my best and doing the right thing is all you ask of me. Help me also to continue to get spiritual food. Make a way for me to continue to attend church and remind me of your love. Amen.