OAs a person grows, one should logically become more mature.

Sometimes, seeing how mature other people are at my age, I become ashamed of myself. But I am glad that everyday I am still growing and learning :)

1 revelation.
Today, I found out that there is something deeply rooted inside of me that I have managed to hide for years, deceiving not only myself but everyone around me.

I thought I have found it within myself to forgive my brother. But yet, every time my mum speaks well of him, I am skeptical and unhappy. I cannot believe that a person like him is able to change.

But is that really the reason? Or is it because I havnt forgiven him fully yet? Yes I may have gone past the stage of bitterness, but deep deep down, I'm not so sure I'm willing to accept that a person like him can change.

I may sound extremely petty, but childhood hurts are not that easy to get over I guess. And now that I have a fresh revelation on this issue, it's time to get it fixed. It won't be easy, but it will be worth it.

1 loss.
Have you ever felt like you're the only one trying to keep a friendship going? I mean you try and try and get no response. A friendship is a two way thing. It's really not going to work if only one party wants to keep the friendship going.

For a year, I've struggled with myself, not knowing if I was being oversensitive or too selfish.

Someone once told me, if you really were true friends, you wouldn't be keeping tabs on who's putting in more effort. It's true, but it's tiring too. Imagine, having to play on a seesaw all by yourself, for 3 years. Possible, but very tiring.

Horrible analogy but you get the idea.  Time and Time again I've gave you chances. Today I gave you a final chance, and a deadline. You've missed the deadline and you still couldn't even be bothered to reply.

patience has its limits too.

1 expression of joy.
Things really do happen when you least expect it. People have often told me I have horrible taste in guys - meaning every guy I find cute, nobody else does.

I take it as a good thing though :P no competition!

If it's your will God, may your grace be sufficient for me, that I may continue to attend bsf and church regularly next year. And also for divine opportunities (if you know what I mean :P )