I have decided that since I do not have the discipline to sit down and meditate on God's word, every week, i shall pen down my reflections for the week, to help me grow in my walk with God.

The week has passed by so quickly, as always. And one question that is nagging in the back of my mind is "how do i refrain from being lukewarm or how to be hot for God." Oftentimes, there may be afew breakthroughs but seldom will the fire last long.

Am i considered being lukewarm as I struggle to spend time with God everyday?  How does one gain the passion to be on fire for God? Does it come naturally as I learn more about God's goodness? Or does God cause me to become more passionate for him for the purposes of his kingdom?

That thought aside, two other things stuck out significantly in the past week.

Of course the other one would have been God's grace in granting me a job. Knowing that God does not tempt me more than i can bear, i think God knew that i would have been devastated if i didnt secure a job before i resigned. Yet when i made the decision to resign, i took a gamble. And im glad that God granted me the desires of my heart.

I also learnt that my parents prayed that i would have no choice but one in my decision for a job so that i may know that is truly God's will. Even though i do not know what Gods plan is because having such a job will limit my abilities to serve reguarly in church or voluntary work, i shall trust in him like joseph did.

Somehow, even though i tried to deny it, i remember knowing deep down that God wanted me to have this job (maybe its becauae of the low pay). Just that i decided to expel the thought to the back of my head and credit it to wanting a job too desperately.

Yet i saw God's divine intervention as i made my way to the place and meeting the general manager along the way when it was pouring, causing him to comment that im punctual despite the weather,  which might have aided in the selection process.

It would be good to remember how privileged i was to get a job in cpf too because i knew too that it was all part of God's plan.

Second thing that struck me is that there are people looking up to me in this phase. I may just be a friend to her, but my actions will cause an impact in her life. When she asks me questions, waiting for my answer, seeking clarification, i wonder, if i am being a good enough role model for her. Not just for her, but people i interact eith everyday, see me as a fragment of God. What i mean is that through me, knowing that im christian will create a perception of christians and in turn christ.

Do people see God when they see me? How do i reach that level? I guess its only by God's grace, as said in lecture today, the more i see my dependability on God, the more i will grow spritually mature.

Enough food for thought for tonight, till more next week.