Work is really crazy nowadays.
The politics and lack of motivation. And it's not that I don't want to have the motivation to work hard but it is really pointless when working hard just puts you at a disadvantage. Today, all I can remember is the countless times that being a good employee just made me suffer.

Leave
The only person in the team who didnt take leave when everyone else did, and whats more, everyone had to take leave in the same period despite the rule that only two people can go on leave at one point of time. Happily ignoring it and causing an entire stretch to have only three people taking cases.
Despite being the only one who went through the most of the crisis period, still the only one who does not need to tap into other staff to help to clear my backlog or anything. I may have to ask questions to clear my cases but I still clear them dont I. rather then knowing how to do my cases yet not being able to clear them.

MC 
Also the only staff who has never taken an MC before, Yet what good is that? except to be happy that I'm healthy. Since I have all the medicine I need at home or even if I dont, daddy can get it for me. I dont even eat medicine unless im dying also. No hassle and long waiting times at polyclinics, when will i ever take MC? Yet what good is it? All I get in return is alot more cases than than those that take MC. Just take a look at my comeback cases after just a mere 7 months in the job. its on an average of 10 comeback cases on top of the new cases I get. It's almost equivalent to the senior staff already. Or maybe I just have annoying cases. But seriously. Its not even recognized. Does anyone care that you have such a cleam MC record? No. Maybe subsequent employers will care. But really.

My dad has not taken a single MC for four years, In his workplace, they have the lowest MC rate because they care for each other, knowing that others will have a hard time because they are a small team and with just one person on MC, the other teammates struggle. And his boss, in fron of the entire department, praised their team for it. Quote " I am really grateful to have have a team with the lowest MC rate, with workers that turn up even when they're sick" unquote. See that? That is called recognition. Something that is missing from my workplace.

Politics
Just the appearance of a new staff has caused so much unhappiness in the team. I rather she never came in and we had lesser manpower. I don't even know if our concerns are considered valid. Why is she so great that she is so sheltered. After 1.5 months. She has learnt three case types. Three. And even in this minuscule scale of what she actually knows, it is capped to 2 cases per person per day. Fine if shes a slow learner or cant cope. What I didnt realize is that while the rest of us is capped at 2 cases a day, not only does her buddy not give her cases, but she is actually helping someone else clear her cases? I didnt know that is called not being able to cope. Even someone who came in for one week is doing so much better.

Work in general
Whats the point of doing work fast. If you cant finish it in the end someone else will help you to clear it anyway. Might as well just leave it until someone else comes along and helps you to clear it. Or just take MC la. Then you wont get cases what. In this place, the better you perform, the more tasks are given to you. And these ad hoc tasks nobody even cares if you can cope or not. Even if it does improve your overall ranking in the department, who can see the ranking? only the big boss. Is the big boss going to reveal the ranking so that I can get a better job in the future? If we ourselves dont even know our ranking how is it going to help us ?

Enough of the bad lets think positively. 
Some of the supervisors are decent enough to notice how the staff are doing and asking about them. And hearing their staff out. Overall in general thoughout the whole department, theres not much politics i think. Only recenly in my team after the appearance of the new girl. Did the politics arise. You can do anything you want so long you finish your work. Even though others dont finish their work and still do whatevery they want.

Some days, like today, I just want to get out of the place. Throw everything down and just leave.I think thats what my parents meant by the working world is a cruel world. That I should enjoy my time as a student while I can.

This might not be the most mature post and might make me sound like a negative bitch, but it feels really good to get it off my chest. Even though its no use at all posting this because no one from my workplace will ever come across this, but at least its out of my system.

Tomorrow will be a better day. Gambatte Eunice.