All of a sudden, it all just comes crashing down.

A simple dream, to go to Australia to study is now gone. Just because of money. It's just so sad because i thought I had it all figured out and then it just all comes crashing down again and I have to rethink my options again and everything.I thought I'd be happy when I received the offer. But I'm not. Guess that's why they say life's a bitch.

And I even took it out on my dad. Sigh. sometimes I think I really push away everyone that is too good to me. Why am I like that. seriously.

I'm damn screwed up la.