Being in Ho Chi Minh for the last four days made me realize how blessed I am to be living in Singapore. Singapore is relatively safe, and even if something did happen, we can always turn to the police who is just a phone call away. In HCMC, I breathe a sigh of relief every strret I cross. There are no dividers and no traffic lights. My friend and I just held each other's hands and ran across the street most of the time. In Singapore, our streets are organized and our air may not be fresh, but is definately less polluted. More updates on my vietnam trip when I get home and upload all the photos!

Meanwhile, I'm still really anxious about my University Applications. Just waiting for their reply is killing me. Never in my life have I been so anxious to get a reply from anybody. I'm still troubled as to which University I should go to, but what has been said has been said. I'm just torn between education, family, monetary issues and lastly, my own heart. Sigh.

I also applied for a SPH Scholarship. If I get it, the money issue would be resolved. I would also have secured a job when I graduate and would not have to worry about that issue either. Wish me luck because I'm going to need alot of it. I'm sure that there are many eligible applicants who also applied. I only wish I knew what I wanted to do earlier on in my life so I'm not stuck here now like this, with a crappy GPA and struggling so hard to do what I love. That's life. You never know whats ahead until you get to it. But no matter what, I'm not going to give up until I get to my destination. Be it appying 10, 20, 100 times to SPH, I'm still going to try until I know I've given my best.

Talking about all this makes my mood so.... emotional. Is there even such a thing? Emotional mood. Emo. Haha. Why isit so hard to do something you love? Why is love so unpredictable? Why is love so hard to acquire?

Was just reminded about my PaPa telling me not to go to Austalia to study and I'm already tearing. Just thinking about it brings a pang of pain to my heart. The sadness in his voice is so tangible. How will I survive in Australia like that when I'm already so sad when I'm still here. I must buckup and become a stronger person.

Patience Eunice, patience is key. Worrying will not help you to get into the Uni or help you to get a scholarship.

Matthew 6: 25-34
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?  Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?  Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life ?  "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.  Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.  If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?  So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'  For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.  But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.  Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

So comforting to know :)
It's all in God's hands. I shall not worry because it's all planned out already by my God <3